i found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing.

new livejournal

Mon, 31 May 2004 20:41:12 GMT

hey all. i made up my desicion. i made up a new journal. im sick and tired of this one. :-)

its --> www.livejournal.com/users/many_memories

ADD ME GUYYYS! it's gonna be friends only, so BLAH!

<333 jules

kelsi's casa.

Sun, 23 May 2004 14:13:38 GMT

okay, lets all get one thing straight. i thought i liked camo, and i mean.. i did, and he liked me. he even told me that he did. and then he told me that he didnt, and i got over it. and i dont like him anymore. i dont fucking care what anyone else says anymore. its really stupid that people, whom are camo's friends, are gonna get in my business and shit. but whatever. i dont really care. we really didnt connect at all, and we didnt really have anything in common. except for we have the same birthday. but whatever. and this is a live journal. i can say whatever the fuck i want. so just fuck off.

yah, im at kelsi's house. angie, sarah and kelsi are still sleeping. :-) i had to wake up and take a shower and get ready for church. now, im hanging out in kelsi's room with nicki. she took sam home already. sam came and spent the night and shit, but totally passed out on the couch. it was funny. it was kelsi's birthday party. it was really fun!! there was me, sam, kelsi, sarah, angie, blaine, dan, jon, bryant, abby (kelsi's friend), arnold, nicki, and dustin duffy came for a little while. he just played guitar and stuff. he's really cool. we swam and ate and what not. i did nicki's make up! :-) then, we all fell asleep to old school.

i had a swim meet on saturday. i won everything that i did individually. our relays didnt win though. but its okay. :-) i was still happy. i have ponderosa in the IM and butterfly. i'm gonna try to get it in the freestyle and in the backstroke. which i definitly know tat i can. :-) okay, well.. im going.

later.

<3 jewleah.

3 more days of "school".

monday - no swimming, 9:30 for algebra.
tuesday - 7:30 for ipc, no spanish.
wensday - no theatre, 9:30 for english.

blah.

Sat, 15 May 2004 20:47:31 GMT

yah, so... i wake up at 6:15. i get my bathing suit on, and go out to the car. i fall asleep in the car. i get to the pool and my dad and brother decides to leave me there. i got in like -4594854523049382093849 degree water and warm up at 7:15 in the morning. we warm up for maybe 10 minutes? yah, then i get out. the meet starts and im bored. around hmm, 9 something, i swim in a relay. i did the butterfly. we won. then, about 45 minutes later, i swam the 50 freestyle.. i won with a time of 28.??. then i did the 100 IM. i wont with a time of 1:13.??. then, i swam the 50 butterfly, and i won with a time of 32.??.. last event was another relay, and i was first. my time was like 28, again.. and we won, again. so yah. i won everything today. it rocked.

yah, now its like 3:45, and im so tired. the meet ended at like 1:10.. and yah. we got home and i've been on the computer. im guessing camo is still sleeping.. because he's not getting online. :( i miss him.

i really hope that me and him go out. it'd be awesomeeeeeeeeeeeee!

later.. im going to take a shower and get ready to go to JAMBA JUICE and meet kelsi, angie, and sarah up there.. and then im going to kelsi's house! it's gonna be so cool. yayayayayayayyayaa!!

okay, im out. latuuuuuuuuuuur.

<33333333 jewleah

there's this one guy..
whom i like a lot.

omg.

Sat, 15 May 2004 03:05:32 GMT

omg. this is amazing. i just felt this confident feeling come over me. this is awesome. im listening to avril. look at these lyrics that she wrote. this is like from me to bradley.

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

updation.

Sat, 15 May 2004 02:24:16 GMT

hey. yah, earlier.. i was typing a lot, and it erased all of my stuff, and it pissed me off. grr. yah, since i havnt written in here in a long ass time. it's been like 2 weeks? i dont remember. i'll write about some stuff.

well, like 2 wensdays ago, i went to the TAKING BACK SUNDAY, BLINK 182, and cypresshill concert. it was awesome! like, school was going by so slow, and i was like ah! when will this end?! so, yah.. then i had to stay after school, too. just to help stupid jon pass algebra. he wasnt paying attention to anything i was saying either, you can ask suzie. so yah, my mom picks me up, and we go to jamba juice, and i get my juice.. and we go back home, and i get ready. then we went to my andrew's house. we chilled, and had our moms conversate. we waited for like 45 minutes. then we hopped in andrew's mom's escalade (cant spell) and we cruised on over to marco's house. yah, then like 5 mintues marco, michelle, and jena arrive. michelle and jena freak out, and say that they forgot their ticket at home. and im like omg. so they get dressed, and then frankie and joe come. we were all chilling upstairs.. then we went to michelle's house to get her ticket. then we went off on our way. we stopped at this gas station because of jena's ticket. yah.. then we stopped in the woodlands for food. (jack in the box). i got french fries... well, curly fries! yah, so we all think that cypresshill is going to play first, and we're already late, so we're like.. eh, we're not missing anything. yah, so we get dropped off, and we're walking to the pavilion. :D and my heart is beating so fast, and im getting really excited. yah, we're standing inline, and andrew was ilke, this isnt cypresshill.. its taking back sunday. and im like omg. so, we basically missed taking back sunday. yah.. then i buy a shirt, and find lauren and kry. then we go and find a place to sit on the lawn. then, me, frankie and andrew decide to leave and find jon. yah, we find him and lauren and kry. then he wanted to go get a shirt, and we found him talking to cord, dustin, and delana. yah.. i said hey to all of them. then i walked off with lauren and kry. i was with them all during cypresshill. yah, they were really gay. they had this HUGE inflateable budda thing with a marjuhanahajskdjkfj leaf as a necklace. and i was like, wtf? then they brought out a like 4 foot bong, and the guy smokes from it. and they kept singing, "raise your hands if you wanna get higgggh" and we're like omg. yah.. so they stop singing, and i go up and sit with the team. andrew and i are takling, and he's like.. does lauren and kry have "left" seats? and i was like yah.. and he was like, do you want mine? i dont reallly want it. and i was like omg! thank you sooo fucking much! so, i take it, and i go find lauren and kry. i basically sneak up there and we got so fucking close. i was so excited. then, blink came on.. and i almost cryed. they are so beautiful. they played for like an hour and 20 minutes. they were amazing. i felt so awesome being there. it was like the best night of my life.. literally. the last song they played with damnit. it was awesome. i was so happy. we were in like row 7. not exactly center, but we were pretty damn close. it was awesome. like, i cant even explain it. it was just kinda like, i felt so open and freee.. no one to boss me around and tell me not to get into something. i was totally feeling the music, jumping up and down and screaming to every song.. totally feeling everything. i loved it. yah, then we left. i wanted to cry. lol.. yah, i got home at like 12.

i cant really remember what else happened that week..

monday - i hate jon.
tuesday - went to swimming, cried for some reason, went out to dinner with dad.
wensday - churched it with amanda, found out that this REALLY HOT GUY likes me.
thursday - really good day.
friday (today)
-before school, i saw lareigh and camo. i gave lareigh her dvd back, and takled to camo for like 2 minutes. then i walked around with sam. she likes arnold. and arnold likes her. it makes me happy.
-first period, nothing really happened. it was cat's birthday, and she got us cheesecake. it was pretty good. i ate some. then we walked one tree hill. then i layed down and read my book.
-second period, we had a sub. me and arnold talked the whole time! we played paper, scissors, rock.. and it was fun.
-third period, we had a lame teks review..
-fourth period, <3. megan, lareigh, camo, and i stood up infront of the classroom, and read this little skit outta a little book. camo played this guy that wanted to get married to me, and i was like "no, no".. but really i was like, "yes, yes". lareigh played this character as my grandma. and megan played the narrator. we were awesome.
-lunch, i got chicken. it made my tummy hurt. there was a fight between these 2 mexican guys. ahaha, funny. i looked at camo. he's so pretty.
-advisory, ahh! i cant remember what i did. i just sat there and listened to people talk. i looked at camo, again. :D
-fifth period, we had a sub. she was pregnant. she was kinda bossy, too. i was like fuck you. we had a quiz and watched some of the movie.. "phantom of the oprah". pretty GAY.
-sixth period, we had a sub. (again). we had this quiz. it was really easy. then, me and raychill went outside in the halls.. we went by camo's class, and tryed to get his attention. we finally did, and i waved. then we went to bathroom, and it smelled.. so we went to another one. it was better. then we played outside. we were rolled around on the floor outside of our classroom, and running up and down the halls. then we were playing like 007 or something. it was funnnn. then, some mean teacher tells us to stop. and we'rel ike fuck you. grr.. yah..
after school, i walked with camo to my group. i told him that i was gonna go over to his house. :D
bus ride home, i was playing with lauren's barbie, and making it moon raychill in the other bus. and this one guy, matt cordova, was like.. "how old are you?" and i was like, omg. then they were fucking throwing pencils at the back of my head. i was about to kick some ass. they are like the "cool kids". well, they think that. just because they're black. they are really mean black people. most of them are nice.. but they just think that they are too good for everyone else. grr. lame ass.
after after school, i go to camo's house. he picks me up by cord's house. so i only had to walk a little bit. yah, then dan calls him.. and we go pick him up. and we chill at camo's house. ahhh... he's so beautiful. i really, really like that kid. we wrestled.. :D oh baby. it was hott. he slapped my butt really hard, and then yah. he's so fucking hott. i wanna doooooooooooooooooooooo him. lol. he drove me home. i was happy. he makes me happy. :D *sighs with happiness*
now, im at my dads. bored as hell.. i have a swim meet tomorrow. yuckk.

<3 jewleah

... so there's this guy, named camo.. he's really hott.

crazy

Wed, 05 May 2004 02:26:49 GMT

hey all. yay! im so excited that my computer is working! it makes me so happy.

yah, tomorrow night is the BLINK 182, TAKING BACK SUNDAY, and stupid ass cypress hill. lammmme. but, blink and tbs are gonna kick asssss. im gonna have so much fun! like, heather said that she had a ticket, and i was like shit, i'll buy it. so i did, and now im going with andrew. he's so grand. and yah. marco and michelle are picking us up and what not, and we're going with like the whole swim team. im excited. jon is gonna be there, but im probably not going to see him. grr. im going to try though. yah.. im so excited. i cant believe that im going to see them! and i get to be on another date with my ANDREW! yah buddy. so im excited. :-D realllllllly excited.

today was ehh.. it was okay.

before school, i stood around with jon and dustin and chris, and watched chris make funny impressions of like hanson and shit. it was so funny. and then me and arnold, jon, and andrew walked off.. and i saw sam sitting at my locker, and i was like okay.. so i walked up to her, and i talked to her.

first period, i kinda sat around with andrew. then went up and talked to blake. he's so stupid. then like sat outside with vince, justin, and michael.. just talking about whatever was brought up. they are funny guys. my mom came to bring me my text books. yahs for the mom.

second period, we were in the auditorium. i have to present my poem tomorrow for ms waddell. i dont know why, but i get nervous. its really good, actually.. but im just getting nervous. :-\ i kinda sat around with jon. he's so awesome. <3

third period, we didnt do anything really. we took notes. i sat with michael muery. he's funny.

fourth period, ehh.. the dreaded class. yuckk. hmm, what did i do? oh! we took an eoc test and then watched la catrina. it was stupid. :-\ everything is stupid in there. she like hates me. grr.

lunch, talked to sam the whole time.

advisory, i dont remember. i sang a lot.. talked to lareigh, megan, and camo.. thats about it.

fifth period, hmm.. i didnt do shit in that class. i wrote jon a note. <3

sixth period, i did my work! yay for jewleah! :D ehh.. what else did i do? me and raychill wrote notes back and forth, and thats just about it.

bus ride home, talked to lauren and ema. and this guy that lives in black horse ranch or whatever, and rode our bus.. i was like wtf? it was funny. i dont know if he made it home or not.

after school, ehh.. didnt do anything, really. sat around, did my homework, a little. oh, then went to swimming. lame! omg.. me and courtney sat there for liek 45 minutes waiting for them to come back inside from playing outside. we couldnt find them, so decided to stay inside. it was grand. we only swam for like 40 minutes. we did like a 400 warmup, 2 x 600 IM, and relays. i was like you're crazy. the 2 x 600 were like the definition of death. i havnt swam in like a month, so ouuuuch. i was in pain!

yah, when i got home.. i went outside and played with nic and his dog! she's so cute. her name is molly and she's a little pug. it makes me laugh. :D yah.. then i ate and talked to jon. <3

oh, russells (my little brother), his new s/n is --> pimpmyride65 <-- he's so stupid. lol

well, im going to be so excited tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<|3 jewleah

[. i will wait here for you .]

10:49

Sun, 02 May 2004 15:55:39 GMT

hey all. its morning.. :-\ i stayed up till like 2 and woke up at 10? thats crazy. yepp.. anyways.

blake (my brothers friend) spent the night. and i didnt even know that he was. it pissed me off. i didnt do shit this weekend, and of course, russell gets everything. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i really dont think that im doing anything today. which totally sucks. im just sitting here, doing nothing. *rolls eyes*

my dad and brother are home. i dont really know where they went, but i think blake isnt here anymore, so maybe they dropped him off somewhere. i dont know. i think they went to sleep at like 1.. or so. i dont know. blah blah blah.

yah, i dreamt about him again. i swear he's all i think about. and yah yah yah, i know that i shouldnt be going after boys right now, but read my long entry, like 2 entrys ago. "my confessions".. then you would understand. but whatever.

blah blah blah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so freaking bored.

<|3 jewleah

[. i will wait here for you .]

.. today is the most boring day of my life.

Sun, 02 May 2004 04:45:25 GMT

holy potatoes. today has basically been a waste.

just a couple of minutes ago, i did a bad thing. :-D i'll tell whoever asks on AIM. :-D

i made sarah's journal pretty. :-D im excited. and i re-did mine. so yay!

i am still thinking about him like whoa. i miss him, too.

maybe more later.

<|3 jewleah

my confessions.

Sun, 02 May 2004 02:22:33 GMT

he's all i think about. i dont understand why. i mean.. i do, but why now? i guess it was my mistake for ruining things with me and him. like going out with bryant for a whole 2 days. but bryant made me think about how much i actually care about him.

i dont want bryant to be mad at me, though. i would be sad if he was mad at me.

there is just something about him that makes me come back to him. he's like amazing. i dont even know how to put him into words. i cant even put how much i care about him into words. he's just, the only thing i want to live for right now. i will wait for him.. i swear i will. i will make that promise to myself.

this year has sucked. i know that i went out with blake right after me and bradley broke up, but people.. understand that, that was my way of getting over him. but, almost 4 months later, it came back to haunt me. then, after me and blake were broken up, i got closer to jon.. then we dated. for almost a month. then, it came back, again. 2 weeks after being single, i had to ruin everything, and move onto bryant. he's a great guy, but after 2 days of knowing that we were going out, i felt weird.. and decided to call it off. i think we're better as friends. i think that its for the best.

now, all i think about is jon. i dreamt about him last night and thought about him all day. i cant imagine what pain that i might have caused him. jsut for him to know that i wanted a break, but we were soon going to go back out, and then i went off and dated his firend. i didnt really like it too much when that happened with me, like.. with jena and bradley and sam and blake. so, yah. i dont understand.

i like not having to deal with someone right now. i told myself one night, that i was too lazy to have a boyfriend. its just an extra person to care for.. like to make sure that i dont hurt them. it sounds really bad, but it was true. a lot of people tell me that i dont need a boyfriend, and that i need a break from boys. to let the true person come to me, and not me follow them around everywhere.

its weird, i'm trying.. i really am. but, bradley was me. he made me up. im kinda like his creation. and then when he leaves me, im not anyone anymore. im just some girl. i dont really even know who i am right now. and it hurts me a lot to know that i dont even know who i am. i mean, of course.. i know that im julia lynn richey, but me.. my inside me. my emotional me. its hard to explain, but i hope you understand. i mean, i was with someone for a year, and its hard to be without. not just that one person, but anyone. its hard to make it on my own. i know that i need that love and that attention from a boy, but i mean.. i dont know, i dont think i want it. but i know that i need it. i am so used to it, and then when its gone, and i dont have anyone (as it really does feel like), i just break down.

i lack attention from my family, a lot. my brother is a shining hockey player, that actaully loves to go to practice, and work out and shit. he makes all A's and B's in school, yet always gets introuble with his stupid attitude. Me, on the other hand, never goes to practice, hates to swim, doesnt really seem to make really good grades, has problems, always has an attitude, and lacks everything. obviously, russell gets most of the attention. especially from my dad. russell and him always go golfing, while i sit here as i am now, doing nothing. i dont really like doing things with my family any more because they never really ask, and i'd rather sit alone in my room doing nothing. i dont know, i guess its just how i am. and most of the attention from my like, family.. like my aunts and uncles and stuff.. like they pay atttention to nikki, my perfect cousin. let's explain her. okay, she's a senior in high school, she has a boyfriend named kody, she's like 18, i think.. she was on the drum line during football season, and is on varsity basketball during spring season. to me, i dont think she has any problems. i mean, she'll look more like my mom than i ever will. (they have like the SAME face) i feel like i let a lot of people down, including myself, when i failed this past semester.. like in spanish. i dont even know how to explain how bad i felt when i found out that everything that i worked for.. like swimming my ass off all year, i did all that for fucking nothing. it was hard to comprehend.. but i mean, yah. i guess its just the way things are. and yah.. so my brother gets most attention from my parents, and my whole family gives all of their attention to nikki. oh, did i mention that she's like the valadictorian.. or how ever the hell you spell it. but im sure that she couldnt last one fucking day at our school. we have a student body of like 3,000 maybe, and her's is like maybe, 1,000? not even. its a small as town in the middle of no where. i think its close to like san antonio, too. i dont know.. and im glad that i dont live there. that pretty much wrapps all that up.

i know that i have a lot of anger, and a lot of pain inside me.. and i dont know how to let it all out. its hard. i bottle it up, nowadays. people usually think that i just say a lot of shit to get attention.. and then when i just act like im okay, and put a smile on my face, and carry on through the day as if nothing is wrong with me, people assume that im a fake person. well, one day you fucking say that the only oreason why i act sad at school or im showing pain at school that i do it for show, or attention, and then when i just shut up at school, and act okay.. then when i hit home, cry.. that im fake? i dont understand people like that. it really pisses me off. people are STUPID! i dont even know.

i think this year has got to be the worst year of my life. i really hate high school. i really hate cy falls high school. i dont know how im going to survive going to school with the same people. i practically hate almost everyone at our school. and everyone hates me. except for my really good friends. being on varsity and stuff is probably the only thing that it keeping me from moving away. i want to live here, with my dad, and go to tomball and stuff.. but i dont know. its just hard for me to like make that decision right now. and i know that i'd be hurting my mom.. but i mean, she's got david and russell..

this is a really long entry, i think im going to write more.

i really like livejournal. it really helps me get a lot of shit out. and i dont care what you think of this entry, like if your comment is bad, write it. i dare you. i really dont give a shit. call me stupid, ignorent, pitiful, dumb, ugly, fat, pathetic, fake, and everything else oyu can possibly think of. im not going to listen to you. you are just a relaly low person for writing any of that anyway.

blah, im just blah right now. im getting mad. i really do think that i am bipolar. its so weird. i mean, one minute, im so happy, and then the next im so sad, crying and everything, and then when i get pissed, i really do get pissed. and have this huge, i dont even know.. wave come over me, and do crazy things. like scream until i need water, cry until my eyes burn, cut till i bleed. its quite depressing, actually.

im going to go. comment me if you want.

<|3 jewleah

[i will wait here for you.]

i took this from some random guy.

Sat, 01 May 2004 22:28:52 GMT

* Date: May 1st, 2004
* Name On Birth Certificate: Julia Lynn Richey
* Age: 14
* Birthday: 7/11/89
* School: Cypress Falls High School
* E-mail: swimpunk07@yahoo.com
* Eyes: hazel
* Hair: light brown and a hint of blonde and red.
* Weight: 110
* Height: 5'2"
* Shoe Size: 7
* Who lives with you: Mom, Russell (brother) and Scooby (dog).
* When is your bedtime?: i dont really have one.
------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
* Flown on a plane: yes
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: i have never been drunk
* Missed school because it was raining: nope
* Told a guy/girl that you liked them?: yes
* Put a body part on fire for amusement: ahaha, no.
* Had a crush on a friends girlfriend/boyfriend: hmm, yes.
* Been hurt emotionally: lots and lots
* Kept a secret from everyone: yess
* Had an imaginary friend: tons.
* wanted to hook up with a friend: of course. thats how people date.
* Cried during a Movie?: yes
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: that one guy.. johnny bravo. :D
* Been on stage: unfortunatly, yes.
* Cut your hair: uh huh.
* Had crush on a teacher? um, no. all my teachers are gross and women.

-----------------FAVORITES------------------
* Shampoo: garnier frutis
* Fav Color: black
* Day/Night: night
* Summer/Winter: winter
* Lace or Satin: satin
* Fave Cartoon Character: i dont have one.
* Fave Food: mexican.
* Fave Advertisement: the trojan man ones. they are so dumb.
* Fave Movies: home room, connie and carla, grease, and free willy.
* Fave Drink: dr pepper
* Person to talk to online: lots.
* Fave Car: 1967 ford mustang.
* Fave sports stars: i dont know of any. michael jordan?

-----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
* Wearing: a shirt and shorts.
* Eating: nothing.
* Drinking: nooooooothing.
* Thinkin bout: my hair.
* Listening to: my dad talking
---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
* Cried: yes.
* Worn jeans: yes.
* Met someone new online: noppppe.
* Done laundry: no
* Driven a car: no
* Talked on the phone? yes

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
* Yourself: not really
* Your friends: i dont know, some of them.
* Santa Claus: no
* Tooth Fairy: no
* Destiny/Fate: im not sure.
* Angels: sorta
* Ghosts: yes
* UFO's: yes
* God: sometimes

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
* Do you ever wish you had another name? yes
* Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? no
* Do you like anyone? yes.
* Which one of your friends acts the most like you? raychill. :D
* Who have you known the longest of your friends?: emily banks.
* Who's the loudest: chaney and raychill
* Who's the shyest: dont know..
* Are you close to any family members? used to be my cousin, now its kinda my stepmom
* Who's the weirdest? me.
* Who do you go to for stuff? emotional stuff, usually jon or raychill.
* Who do you hang around the most? raychill
* When you cried the most: i cry everyday
* What's the best feeling in the world: being loved.
* Worst Feeling: being alone
* Do you want all your friends to do this and send it back to you: i dont care
* What time is it now? 5:13. whoa.

BoDY ILLs anD sKILLs

x 01. do you bite your nails; yes
x 02. can you roll your tongue; nope.
x 03. can you raise one eyebrow at a time; yes.
x 04. can you blow smoke rings; i dont smoke
x 05. can you blow spit bubbles; no, but its funny to watch other people. (cody)
x 06. can you cross your eyes; yes
x 07. can you flip your eyelids out; yuckk!!
x 08. tattoos and where; no.. i want one on my lower back, though.
x 09. piercings and where; none.
x 010. do you make your bed daily; pshh. no.

cLoTHes

x 01. what goes on first, bra or underwear; underwear.
x 02. which shoe goes on first; right.
x 03. speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone; my brother.. and the bug.
x 04. what jewelry do you wear 24/7; my star necklace and the string bracelet brad (s) tied on my wrist.
x 05. what's sexiest on a guy; earrings

GroomInG

x 01. how often do you brush your teeth; 2 times a day
x 02. how often do you shower/bathe; every morning
x 03. how long does your shower last; 10-45 minutes.
x 04. hair drying method; air, then blow dry.
x 05. do you paint your nails; sometimes when im bored

manners

x 01. do you swear; yes.
x 02. do you spit or swallow; hmm? i spit after i brush my teeth.
x 03. do you spit; spit what?
x 04. do you pee in the shower; of course.

In anD arounD

x 01. the cd player; the used.. duh.
x 02. person you talk most on the phone with; jon
x 03. what color is your bedroom; yellow at my moms (the whole house is) and red and white at my dads.
x 04. do you use an alarm clock; my mom is my alarm clock.
x 05. name one thing you are obsessed with; writing
x 06. have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex? i've never skinny-dipped
x 07. ever sunbathed nude; no
x 08. window seat or aisle; window
x 09. what's your sleeping position; i dont know. im usually asleep so i dont pay attention.
x 010. what kind of bed do you like; waterbeds, buti dont have one
x 011. even in hot weather do you use a blanket; yes, because my fan is on high
x 012. do you snore; i dont know..
x 013. do you sleepwalk; ahaha, no.
x 014. do you talk in your sleep; im not sure
x 015. do you sleep with a stuffed animal; they usually end up on the floor
x 016. how about with the light on; a night light.
x 017. do you fall asleep with the tv or radio on; radio.

wHen was THe LasT TIme You

x 01. took a shower; like 15 mintues ago
x 02. watched bambi; what kind of question is that?
x 03. cried; like an hour ago
x 04. talked on the phone; an hour ago
x 05. read a book; yesterday
x 06. punched someone; matt, yesterday

THe FuTure

x 01. where do you see yourself in ten years; out of collage and in marine biology
x 02. who are you going to be married to; a boy.
x 03. how many kids; 2
x 04. your profession; marine biologist
x 05. future school; a&m galveston
x 06. Tell the truth, are you a loser? If so, why?; i dont know what i am.
x 07. Have any fetishes? What are they?; jamba juice. because its so gooood.
x 08. What's the most stupid thing you've done?; things.
x 09. Ever smoked pot?; nope
x 010. What attracted you to this certain survey?; i needed something to do.
x 011.Do you ever lie about your age?; i did, once.
x 012. What about lying about your location?; uh huh.
x 013. Do you act your age?; people tell me i dont act 14.. maybe older
x 014. What is your favorite thing to do on the weekends?; things with friends, or sleep.
x 015. What is your favorite TV show?; real world
x 016. Do you like this survey so far?; i guess
x 017. Are you racist?; sometimes.. not all the time.
x 018. Have any pets?; jaws (fish) and scooby and lexie. (dogs)
x 019. Do you know what shaych means?; noo
x 020. How old are you?; you already asked that.. 14.
x 021. Do you know my name?; you're a survey.
x 022. Have you ever been to jail?; no
x 023. Have you ever done something so you SHOULD be in jail?; no..
x 024. Do you go to church?; yepp
x 025. Do you think this survey is too long?; i dont know
x 026. Are you a virgin?; yes
x 027. When did you/When do you plan on losing your virginity?; when i get married
x 029. Do you like the singer Avril Lavigne? yes!
x 030. Did you like this survey? you already asked that.. i guess.

today sucked ass.

Sat, 01 May 2004 04:12:56 GMT

hey all. yepp, thats right.. today sucked ass. i hated it like whoa. lets see here..

first period, i just sat there until mr. andrew came up and talked to me. i was happy because no one really talks to me in that class. i hate it.

second period, okay.. since things are really weird with me and jon, we didnt talk. arnold must have left school or something, and he wasnt in there. i pulled my desk back, and hid my face in my arms. i cryed for a couple of mintues, and slept the whole period. i slept on the desk, adn then under the desk on the floor. jon didnt say anything to me. i guess he doesnt have to. im not his anymore.

third period, i sat there. i did my work. i was in the worst of all moods ever. blake and terra piss me off. even though me and sam arnt friends, it still pisses me off. i mean, c'mon.. he's all "omg.. sam" around her, but when he's not.. its mad crazy. they sit there and flirt like crazy. grabbing each others legs and stomachs.. blake pokes her and plays with her hair. its really funny, actually. now i know what he must have done to me when we were dating. lame ass.

fourth period, whoa.. that period blows ass. i dont even remember. i was in a bad mood, and i guess.. didnt feel like doing anything. i wanted to tell her to shut the fuck up and leave me alone.. but didnt have the balls. she screams like we're deaf and like we're retarded or soemthing. if anything, she's she retard. she's nice at times, but other times.. she's just ugh, lame. i dont like her. i sat on the floor with lareigh and watched that stupid fucking movie. its so stupid. i really dis like that a lot. :-\. yah.. what else? oh.. i dont know. we had a stupid book check too.

lunch, stupid. i really and truely hate lunch. sam always trys to talk to me. i guess she doesnt understand. i dont want to talk to her. i dont want to be her friend. she hurt me in many ways.. and more than once. im not ever going to let that happen again. i dont even wanna be nice. it sickens me. i had a burrito today. that also sickens me. cece and chris and michael.. oh, and matt had one too. i guess it was national burrito day. weird. i dont know. yah.

advisory, i just sat there. lareigh wrote sara and i think, siera a note.. and i worked on lareighs system of a down collage. it looks pretyt good. i have to finish the song on the back. i dont really like s.o.a.d. much.. but if you read the lyrics, they're cool. i think dan likes ray. its really cute. they just sit there and think of songs to sing. buuuut, they have to be oldies. lol. he's into the oldies.

fifth period, really stupid. i think i sat there and read my book for the first 30 minutes of that class. paolo wasnt here today. i got on the computer, and put in an entry. it was fun.. i guess. mr. dickson let me go to my locker. woot woot. hmm.. i think thats it. oh, i didnt have any coffee today. i guess i didnt really feel like it.

sixth period, okay. this stupid ass black girl, i dont know her name.. christina i guess.. yah. okay, tasha's "grease" for her hurrr like busted in her bag or something, and she was going to throw it away, but christina wanted it (because she cant afford any on her own).. and me and raychill wanted to see what it was, and she goes all off saying that we're ignorent. and im like wtf, how am i ignorent? and she was just talking and talking.. and me and raychill just laughed at her, and made jokes about being "ignorent" and being a "white person" for the rest of the class. we both hate her. she's so mean. tasha is acutally nice and caring. christina is just a bitch.

bus ride home, yah.. i figured out that no one likes sam. she talks too much bull about people. but so does everyone else and their mom.

after school, hmm.. i guess nothing really happened. i left to attempt to swim, but the pool was thankfully closed due to chemical problems. when i got home, i got some really mean messages from jon. he really hurt me. and i started crying to him on the phone. i dont really want to go into detail, but all i know is that, he hurt me.. and im okay now. i broke up with bryant because i need more time to think. he's a great guy, and really nice.. but for right now.. i need to know what i really want and what i really think that is best for me.

right now i want to just sleep. sleep everything off adn pretend like it'll go away. forget everything that happened today, and just sleep. i feel like weird. like, i dont know how to explain. its really odd. i keep thinking about jon. and what it would be like if i was still with him. it was his birthday, and he's now 16. i feel horrible because all i got him was a hand shake. im going to buy him a card or something to make it up. i care about him. more than words can explain. it crushes me to know that he did stuff. and i also dont want to go into detail about that either. i just miss him. there, i said it. i miss jon.

yah. i made guacamole, or however you spell it. its my famous dish. :-D me and my dad ate the whole thing. we used 4 avocadoes, too. which is a lot. it was tasty. we just got finished watching cheaper by the dozen. and right when the movie ended i looked at russell, like i was going to hug him or something, and smashed his face in the ground with my pillow. lol.. it was great.

i have theropy tomorrow. it doesnt do any good. it just makes me think mroe and more. and how much everything truely sucks.

im going to probably sit in my room or be online on the other computer.

<|3 goolia

whoa.

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 18:19:54 GMT

hey all. i am in english. i havnt written in a long time. ugh. i really hate my computer at home. im sitting here, talking to mikey. :-D yay!

we had taks testing like all week. it was so dumb. :-\ ugh. yah, yesterday was our actual taks test. we had like to sit there for like 2 days without doing anything.. well on wensday, we went into the gym and watched a stupid basketball game. i dont know. it was relaly GAY! ugh. <-- thats me and mikeys word. lol.. okay, yah.. i dont know, im dumb. blah!

yepp, i got jamba juice yesterday. it was grand. :-D and my king asked me out. oh baby oh baby.

yah, i dont really know what to say. i guess i'll write more later because im going to my dad's house tonight. joy.

</3 goolia

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 22:51:07 GMT

this is jules.. bored she loves her dp.. but i say gape soda is way more neat times 10 hm im not quite sure no comment peace dawg. word. i dunno

hi im sam and im neato to the max because i did all this.. and yeah juliaw as on crack when she took these, dont let her fool yuo. i think thats it. bye <123